What is calling you to understand more and to fear less?

Honestly, I think fundamentally the non-mask wearer types are the same people who believe it’s a dog eat dog world and every person needs to fend for themselves. So if you are too weak to survive, their mentality is, it isn’t their problem.

But really on a deep level, they just lack faith in love. They lack heart energy.

One of my friends growing up was sexually abused by their dad, what’s weird is I spent a lot of time talking to him (prior to knowing what had happened) and having pretty in-depth philosophical conversations. He had been an orphan in Boston growing up and had a pretty challenging life of essentially fending for himself and not receiving much mercy or compassion. I’m not saying that’s why he did what he did … but he seemed to lack heart energy. All his views were really selfish, like why pay workers in China better if it increases prices to me kind of mentality. And he most definitely would be someone who’d agree with the anti-masker stuff.

What’s sad is like looking at the whole of his life, he was in such a bubble in terms of knowing anyone with a more generous and caring outlook, at least adults, most of the people around him had that kind of every person for themselves mentality, so that growth and change was really difficult to see happening. I don’t know what happened to him as his daughter confronted him and told the whole family what he’d done which was awesome. She’s doing great now herself, his darkness couldn’t bring her down. But it was such a lesson for me in how many kids fall through the cracks cause in certain neighborhoods, it is every person for themselves and no one notices a malnourished scared girl. She’s told me before she partly thinks she has done well because my family helped to feed and help her from when I met her onward to her graduating HS.

Part of the pandemic thing had me thinking about all these little kids being abused by their parents, no respite, no school to escape to, which just strengthened by resolve to change things. I only wish I had more in me to give as the need is so great.

Basically, I think it’s a lack of heart energy for whatever reason.