What have I tried to avoid? What might it be trying to teach me?

I have tried to avoid moving literally and figuratively. Today I go see my first open house for an apartment that has potential. It went down 30,ooo and yesterday another 10,000. My agent tells me that they are seriously trying to sell this place. She is out of town so I will see it alone. In my mind I have already gone up and down about it. I have to be careful about that because I don’t know why it is priced so low compared to the rest of the sales. I will know when I see it. It is worth looking at. The building in and of itself is awesome, it has a pool and a gym, a doorman, valet parking etc. The building is considered a luxury building in my neighborhood. I never considered even looking at an apartment it that building let alone living there because I could never afford it , so I thought. For me it’s not a matter of luxury its a matter of sunlight and parking and of course affordable and the other amenities are just a very good plus. Or it could be telling me to be content with what I have which is a very small apartment that I have put a lot of work into because I thought it was all I’d ever have and I did the best I could with it. It’s tricky. But I know that fear is what I’m really dealing with. I want to give up before I even see what’s out there. I can’t do that until I at least see what’s out there and see what I want and what I can afford. I get the bug every spring but rarely act on it. This time I’m at least got and agent and some prospects. That’s progress for me. Since I have had a hard time getting out of my house since the pandemic this is a stretch for me to get going again. I need to get back to life and this is a start. At least it gets me out of the house for today and that’s a good start. Nothing ventured nothing gained. I wish I didn’t have to go it alone but ultimately its my decision either way.