What “limiting beliefs” do I wish to move beyond? What might help me do this?

Grateful Sea, I am sorry for the pain you feel on this issue. I do have a child now. But I had several miscarriages in my younger years. There was enormous pain initially over not being able to carry a pregnancy to term, not having any answers and the lack of control, more that anything the loss of what I perceived at the time to be the most basic and important of female roles – to give birth and mother a child. It was at a time when all my friends were having children. I felt very alone. I had therapy and I read a book called Pride and Joy, which helped me change my perspective on motherhood. I came to believe all women have the power to create in creative ways, not necessarily only by bringing a child into the world. There are so many women in the world who do not have children, either by choice or circumstance, and they are all maternal in their own way by creating positive energy in the world and helping others. I decided I would not try again to have a child, and for 10 years, I truly accepted this lifestyle. It is a long story, but when I was 45 I became pregnant and was able to carry to term. So I am an older mother. My son is on the spectrum. I love him dearly. It is complicated to explain but I will say that though I have no regrets, if I knew then what I know now, I don’t think I would have had a child. I know of similar stories by others. Then there are those who have seemingly perfect children and lives. Having children can be either the greatest joy or the greatest disappointment, or at least a huge emotional rollercoaster ride, and you just never know. There are many women to this day without children who inspire me greatly. I wanted to throw this out there for whatever it’s worth.