WHAT CAN I DO TO EXPRESS GRATITUDE AND SERVE PEACE?

To express gratitude and serve peace today I will be present in the day and spend less time over thinking.
I will affirm my blessings this morning
I will sing through-out the day
I will have designated times where i am working and times where I am playing.
I will leave my laptop at home when I step out.
I will dance and listen to music today.
I will stretch/yoga, meditate and pray.
I will surround my loved ones with a peaceful yet fun energy.

WHEN DID I LAST REALLY “PLAY”? WHAT DID PLAY AWAKEN IN ME?

I played with my niece Heaven and Amelia. This was 2 different occasions that I look back to and smile.
Heaven- her and I went to a playground. I didn’t use my phone not even to take pictures because I was playing with her. Actually in the moment going on the slides with her, playing tag etc. I was completely in the moment. I felt her trust and love which fulfilled me :). I actually spent the day with her as she is a human being vs a child. We had conversations and all, she is 3.
Amelia- My cousins came to visit and Amelia and I really were able to connect and play. She put make up on me so gently, I expected her to be rough since she is 3 and “a baby”. We had conversations about make up and what colors she wanted to put on me. We played connect for and she called me “my love”. I was shocked because she rarely gets along with adults but she jumped on me, hugged me and felt sad to leave. I was able to calm her down so she wouldn’t cry and would be excited for next time.

This awaken trust and love within me. We were carefree and in the moment. Who cares about how the make up looked or how we looked running around we were happy and creative. I felt free and looked up to. This increased my confidence and mood.

WHAT OLD STORIES CAN I RELEASE?

This is a great way to start this Sunday morning. 🙂 Thanks Gratefulness. I can release the old story of “getting my heart broken”. It is inevitable we will love, like, adore or dislike, neglect, etc, we are human beings and have feelings. We act upon these feelings, feelings is not reality. I felt that I was always getting my heart broken however looking back I was living in the moment, and did what served me at that time. If I continue to advise myself that I am getting broken hearted than this is how I am labeling these experiences because of my feeling. Therefore if things don’t work out and I am feeling at a lost , I will not tell myself I am broken heart. Instead I will mark it as an experience rather labeling it as “pain being purposefully inflicted on me”. I’m accepting life for what it is and it is beautiful, it is an experience not a destination.

WHAT SMELL/AROMA PROVOKES A GRATEFUL MEMORY? WHAT IS THE STORE OF THIS MEMORY?

The smell of nature: trees and rain not car gas and other pollutions. The smell of nature tells me a story of free spirited and empowering inspirations. It brings the story of my ancestors (people from the land) and the benefits of living from the land and for the community.

The smell of weed (not burnt just the flower pods) tells me a story of carefreeness (the fun times of the 70s). The courage in fashion, expression, sense of self and passion/drive.

The smell of chlorine at first provokes a memory from my childhood past and I think of the uncleanliness of public pools (this is my point of view respectfully so I do not mean to belittle any others beliefs in my entries). HOWEVER with that being said it provokes gratefulness memories because my parents have their own pool and I am grateful for their efforts to provide our family with it since it is something new to us.

My fathers cooking tells me a story of when I was a child and my main worries of the night was what imaginary story I wanted to play out with my barbie dolls as my father fed me his beans :). This is an actual memory and reminds me of family and nurturing energies.

WHAT IS AN ANIMAL THAT I AM GRATEFUL FOR? WHY?

I am grateful for any animal that is able to be a pet. Pets are amazing because they are “life long” companions that practice true unconditional love. Not only are they companions, we can also learn from them. Life (to me) is not about flashy things and working hard, life is about enjoying the moment/time w. friends and loved ones. It is as simple as meeting together and eating however we have creative thinking and tend to over use it in a ways that impact our wellbeing; such as over analyzing behaviors and making assumptions, etc. As human beings we produce a way of living based off of our emotions and our emotions are usually changing. Animals such as pets and wild animals remind me of the simple way of living. I am extremely grateful to have animals around me.

HOW MIGHT I BE MORE GENEROUS WITH WHAT I HAVE?

I can be more generous with the knowledge that I have (power of our emotions/thoughts/behaviors) by practicing patience with myself and my family. There is a lot of trauma within our family and I have noticed it has developed a way of being/living “I have to do more, its not enough, I HAVE TO GIVE”. The way of being is impacting our relationships and I have. been a bit pushy with. my attempts to introduce relaxation and calmness to our ways being. Patience is something we have not practiced, I at time have hard times being patience w/ myself and lately I have been therefore I am practicing it with my loved ones. [practicing my peaceful warrior].

What has sustained me during times of hopelessness:
Praying
Journaling/ this website
Painting/sketching/drawing
PBS Kids shows
70’s music & Calming music
NATURE
Walking/stretching

Who has sustained me during times of hopelessness:
Myself
Our Creator
Mother Nature
My father
My sister
Animals
My Mentor- Matt L
My therapist
Brene Brown
Dr.Amen
Tara Brach
My friend Thomas & Joce
Pets (of all kinds)

WHAT CAN ENVY TEACH ME? HOW CAN I LEARN FROM IT?

I believe I am learning from it right now. Earlier this year I felt envy and a bit of jealously from one of my collaborators, ever since I have been slowly removing their transferred energies from my aura. I can learn from it by accepting that others will attempt to do so however I have also worked on protecting my energy/ restoring it with Reiki and have a self health plan for myself when I get back to my business :). I truly believe a lot of learning and growing comes from acceptance, accepting is not tolerating nor is it excusing it however it is acknowledging it respectfully.