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“The world doesn’t need any more mediocrity or hedged bets.” –Anne Rice
I hunger for community. Always. And back in may of 2020 my life was empty of it. I had lost a business in March where I was team leader for 15 people and so the absence of human daily connection was poignant. I knew enough to look around, and started with Benedictines, which led to Brother David, and here. Made it part of my routine and am so happy I did. The connections I have with you all are very important.
E.M.Forster famously elevated the importance of connection in his work. I see the truth in this profoundly and it has influenced my thinking for a while. It is in the act of connection, which is wilful in almost every sense, in gradations even if only the slightest acquiescence, as in the admittance of a notion of reciprocity, all the way to heroic courage, crossing lines established by culture and society. Sometimes the connection is instigated by one towards another. Anyway, the point...
E.M.Forster famously elevated the importance of connection in his work. I see the truth in this profoundly and it has influenced my thinking for a while. It is in the act of connection, which is wilful in almost every sense, in gradations even if only the slightest acquiescence, as in the admittance of a notion of reciprocity, all the way to heroic courage, crossing lines established by culture and society. Sometimes the connection is instigated by one towards another. Anyway, the point is, this connection, by its fundamental nature, opens one up to something far greater, It is a conduit. THAT is where reverence shows up for me…in that moment of realization. When real true connection happens, especially when it is a surprise. I have sensed it with people and animals, and even places. I connected to the silence in an empty monastic chapel facing the choir stalls, and sensing the thousands of monks who had passed through the wooden stalls. In that moment I heard, almost tasted, more. And was instantly aware that I was on hallowed ground.
A while ago I came to the realization that my posture here in this life is one as a guest. So this resonates with me. Humility as a default is a learned behavior for me, one that comes with constant practice. My sense of self is less brittle that way, not as quick to take offense. Much less work than running everything. The relative simplicity of this also allows me to consider how I might be a channel for others to use.
So I just wrote (and obviously did not post) a 400 word rant in response to this question. I am exhausted!
We are all different and this is our strength not a source of conflict. We need to find ways to hold hands where and how we are. Women do this better than men in my experience. It is perhaps their hour, as we need so desperately to get this right. So in the sense that the question and the exercise it poses brings us to seeing how much more alike we are than highlighting our differ...
We are all different and this is our strength not a source of conflict. We need to find ways to hold hands where and how we are. Women do this better than men in my experience. It is perhaps their hour, as we need so desperately to get this right. So in the sense that the question and the exercise it poses brings us to seeing how much more alike we are than highlighting our differences I applaud it. I despair at ways we diminish the individual power we have from some sense of injustice over how it is more or less than the power of our neighbor.
Today is my older brother’s birthday, so he is foreground this morning. He is the ideal older brother and in that role has been a support and brought me all kinds of kindness. He has been instrumental in making me who I am today, as he has been by my side the longest.
I have had the extreme good fortune to have spent some time in Benedictine monasteries. Recollection is one of the benefits of that. Loosely speaking, it is the ability to be still and listen almost independently of where I find myself. I use it, a lot. Some places are more conducive than others, like churches, and Muir Woods, the seashore in any weather, the first evening snowfall of winter, a roaring fire after a day of hiking. And some people nurture it just by being in their presence. Whe...
I have had the extreme good fortune to have spent some time in Benedictine monasteries. Recollection is one of the benefits of that. Loosely speaking, it is the ability to be still and listen almost independently of where I find myself. I use it, a lot. Some places are more conducive than others, like churches, and Muir Woods, the seashore in any weather, the first evening snowfall of winter, a roaring fire after a day of hiking. And some people nurture it just by being in their presence. When I find them I keep them around! And then some critters. Dairy cows (whilst milking them by hand), most cats in their commanding mode (as opposed to their fighter one) and the ones that never fails to stop the world in its tracks, whales.
Well following the basic rules of engagement never hurts: keeping my place in line, doing what I say I am going to do when I say I am going to do it, open doors, lift suitcases in and out of the trunk of the car, respecting boundaries of all kinds. That’s a baseline. The more nuanced ones like understanding when to talk and when to stay silent, which parts to share and those best left unarticulated. When to get involved and when to move along. Those all demand a certain courage and reflecti...
Well following the basic rules of engagement never hurts: keeping my place in line, doing what I say I am going to do when I say I am going to do it, open doors, lift suitcases in and out of the trunk of the car, respecting boundaries of all kinds. That’s a baseline. The more nuanced ones like understanding when to talk and when to stay silent, which parts to share and those best left unarticulated. When to get involved and when to move along. Those all demand a certain courage and reflection, as well as willingness to go the distance. All matters of discernment which in my case is certainly an imperfect science.
The common feature is they are unexpected. Show up as a surprise. Can be something simple, like the first time I had shrimp and grits. Was not expecting it to be so amazing!. Niagara Falls, which I had seen myriad pictures of before my first in-person visit, and the approach was shall we say, less than impressive with the denigration of the landscape immediately around in the form of garish amusement arcades and souvenir shops, were unbelievably incredible. Perhaps more so since I was expecti...
The common feature is they are unexpected. Show up as a surprise. Can be something simple, like the first time I had shrimp and grits. Was not expecting it to be so amazing!. Niagara Falls, which I had seen myriad pictures of before my first in-person visit, and the approach was shall we say, less than impressive with the denigration of the landscape immediately around in the form of garish amusement arcades and souvenir shops, were unbelievably incredible. Perhaps more so since I was expecting so little. I am capable of underestimating life.
To be brutally honest, with some dismay I believe the resistance I have to receive is associated with old fashioned pride. A reluctance to connection with unforeseen consequences with others. An old fashioned awareness that there are transactional aspects to accepting assistance of any kind. Coming under a sense of obligation to the benefactor, whether intended by the specific act of generosity or not. It appears energetically like an entanglement in my life experience. Something to be avoid...
To be brutally honest, with some dismay I believe the resistance I have to receive is associated with old fashioned pride. A reluctance to connection with unforeseen consequences with others. An old fashioned awareness that there are transactional aspects to accepting assistance of any kind. Coming under a sense of obligation to the benefactor, whether intended by the specific act of generosity or not. It appears energetically like an entanglement in my life experience. Something to be avoided if possible, and entered into only after serious reflection. It might only be loosened by powerlessness on my part. Having no other choice, being without option, and that feels like it would lack dignity. Let’s just say I am aware I have work to do in this area.
Surender does not come naturally to anyone, certainly not to me. And yet, the myriad ways and times that I have done so have always brought a deepening awareness of soul. It is like the scraping away of barnacles on the hull of a boat, messy, difficult, looks awful, but in the end, with the new paint she runs well. The ‘becoming more’ part is paradoxical in my experience as it seems that with each defeat of ego there is an increase in a certain transparency and I become more authentic whi...
Surender does not come naturally to anyone, certainly not to me. And yet, the myriad ways and times that I have done so have always brought a deepening awareness of soul. It is like the scraping away of barnacles on the hull of a boat, messy, difficult, looks awful, but in the end, with the new paint she runs well. The ‘becoming more’ part is paradoxical in my experience as it seems that with each defeat of ego there is an increase in a certain transparency and I become more authentic while diminished too. And So Much Less Stress. All this time I have been accumulating riches of the important kind while necessarily relinquishing stuff.
I love this question as it has really stumped me! I have a desire to try something new that combines a lot of things: writing, subject matter that I am passionate about, and planning for the future. So I will take this challenge! I will write 1500 words today and see what comes of it!
In many ways I had a privileged childhood. And yet, a definite feature was not to draw too much attention to oneself. There was a tangled web of supporting evidence for this born out regularly. And so ‘shining your light’ is not something that would come naturally to me. At the same time I have a reverence for feedback. It does not frighten me. I know from long experience that positive change can be affected by negative feedback (criticism). In many regards others know me much better than...
In many ways I had a privileged childhood. And yet, a definite feature was not to draw too much attention to oneself. There was a tangled web of supporting evidence for this born out regularly. And so ‘shining your light’ is not something that would come naturally to me. At the same time I have a reverence for feedback. It does not frighten me. I know from long experience that positive change can be affected by negative feedback (criticism). In many regards others know me much better than I know myself. And when the feedback is positive I can embrace it (and do). Evidenced by the fact that I have received awards (professionally) and have the trophies and yet do not mention them in my CV or on my LinkedIn profile. This question has prompted me to examine my comfort level with the status quo, and I am not sensing a need to move the needle on this.
In the past when I was in a place that provided the right infrastructure, I have always had pets, and they certainly played this role. I have several colleagues who I lead tours with (before COVID) who do an amazing job of inspiring me not to mention my folks who I am on tour with (the customers). Now it is the random rider. Sometimes it is the conversations they are having with each other or on the phone that I can’t help but overhear, or the way they engage with me during the ride, someti...
In the past when I was in a place that provided the right infrastructure, I have always had pets, and they certainly played this role. I have several colleagues who I lead tours with (before COVID) who do an amazing job of inspiring me not to mention my folks who I am on tour with (the customers). Now it is the random rider. Sometimes it is the conversations they are having with each other or on the phone that I can’t help but overhear, or the way they engage with me during the ride, sometimes a barista at Starbucks or a cashier in Publix. And the myriad varieties of ducks and geese that share our parking lots. I love the chattering Grackles and Ibis hopping up and over curbs and through the shrubs. And underneath it all the driver is likely Spirit, infusing everything and firing up my inner mind awakening me to the life that surrounds and embraces each moment.
It seems that of late I have been preoccupied with outcomes. In the sense of weighing and judging my activities based on how it will further myself. This is I believe a bit over emphasized and so less of that would be a good goal. More writing. Never enough LOL. Even better, more GOOD writing (whatever that means).
WOW what a great quote! Thanks!
Carol, I am deeply moved by your share. It resonates so with me. I no longer fear adversity, as it can be so fruitful and, life, such as it is, brings that along with magically wonderful times on its course from source…thank you.
It is a powerful bond and we have been through a lot. Part admiration, part competition, part aggression…it was a collision of wills in childhood…and while we are very different in important fundamental ways, we are two sides of the same coin. I am so grateful for him and to him.
I love that quote and have never heard it! Since writing the above I have already fired off about 500 words and come up with several ideas! On Fire! Which is a nice way to feel at 5AM! And yes, these times are replete with inspiration. I wanted to tell you (and the others that read this of course) that rowing the eight on Sunday was a success in that I didn’t capsize the boat, crabbed once (which frankly was a relief in that I got it out of the way) and had such bad form that I have blister...
I love that quote and have never heard it! Since writing the above I have already fired off about 500 words and come up with several ideas! On Fire! Which is a nice way to feel at 5AM! And yes, these times are replete with inspiration. I wanted to tell you (and the others that read this of course) that rowing the eight on Sunday was a success in that I didn’t capsize the boat, crabbed once (which frankly was a relief in that I got it out of the way) and had such bad form that I have blisters on both hands. Worst of all taking the boat out of the water my right shin got into and argument with the boat and the boat won, resulting in a deep gash and a lot of dramatic bandaging in the boathouse. Let’s just say I made an impression…
Cleaning closets is magical in my experience. Opens all kinds of new space energetically as well as physically. And I join you in the hunger for creativity…it is perhaps the antidote I need now.
Birders are the BEST! I have run several nature programs taking folks to the Everglades to bird and learned SO MUCH from them! The most consistently observant people I have ever known!
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