If I assumed the best from everyone I met, I would be less defensive and protective of myself. I would spend less time worrying about what they could do to me and more time appreciating who they are and what they are doing. I am afraid to do this because I could be hurt by them. I want to protect myself from those who I fear could hurt me. I need to re-evaluate my feelings for people, find ways to forgive them, and have trusted others to help me evaluate how cautious I am needing to be. If my concerns are valid, then I will continue to be cautious, but otherwise I will learn to assume the best from them and give them the opportunity to be their best.

It is amazing to me how somethings are easy for me to accept and let go and others are so hard. My 4 month old daughter died and many people asked me why I seemed to accept it so easily. I accepted it because there werenʻt any other options that I knew. It wasnʻt anyoneʻs fault to blame. Due to her genetics, it happened and we all did the best we could to give her the best life we could. Other things in life have been harder for me to let go. When I have been hurt by other people in a malicious way I have a very hard time letting go. My anger and resentment comes from them having a choice and they chose to hurt me or someone else. I have a hard time forgiving those actions. I have listened to the art of forgiveness and I know that it is better for my own well being if I forgive and move on. I am needing to gain more practice in letting go. Breathe.