I am slowly realizing these days that I want to leave the door open for all experiences, and the teachings they bring me. Last summer I fell in love with a wonderful woman, our dates seemed like heaven. Over Christmas we spend much time together and I found myself becoming more and more uncertain, closing myself off and withdrawing into myself in the process. It was very painful for both my sweetheart and for me, and yes, my cramp-like fear was probably rooted in entitlement. Yet now, I have a strange sense of peace with all that happened, I am feeling some very old pain which might just help me heal. In staying with the pain I stumbled upon this community and these ideas of gratitude, and I am realizing through my tears that all this heartbreak might just be an opportunity to find more peace….