I am confused about this question. I don’t consider gaps in curiosity. It’s a life time quality. I do get sidetracked sometimes into anger when it might be better to be curious instead.

My mom’s admonition: “If something is not working, try something else.” I try to stay aware and abide by that. My most current challenge is how I express myself about covid. I take a view that is not mainstream and come upon censorship and cancel culture. The best I can do is not take it personally. Often I try to rise to a higher level that is more inclusive. I think covid is a strong spiritual/personal growth stimulus for a lot of us.

Retired life in central Mexico. Been here since 2003!

Right now we are having a high pressure storm with a lot of wind. I see that the sky is a deep blue-purple, as I look out my window at the unusually shaped mountains. I am so greatefull to live in Tepoztlán–the central volcanic region of Mexico!

At my age, I figure I’ve another 15-20 years to attain the extraordinary life. Perhaps I am already living it and just need to recognize and be grateful for it. When I lack this awareness it’s because I slip into fear of committing to the hard work I’ve been trained to accept as needed, rather than grace, for example. Fear of failure, which ultimately leads to fear of death, holds me back.

I would never have thought I would move to Mexico or publish a memoir about it. I’ve another one upcoming, and an eBook compilation of a photo blog. Write me if interested. I’m looking for beta readers.

Lying in my homemade lean-to out in the backyard, shaded from the summer heat, where I read books from the library.

The Woodstock Festival of Peace and Music, August, 1969.

Nature is always an important teach in my life.

Gratefulness is the gateway to my connection with intuition and to voices of my ancestors.

Magical! Thanks for sharing.

I agree. This reminds me of how I view miracles as different from the dictionary definition. The latter spells it out in terms of the exceptional and extraordinary. But to me seeing a sunrise, or a dog happily running, are the kinds of miracles I notice as such.

Einstein had a similar expression, something like: “Doing the same thing over and over when it does not work is insanity.”

I like what you said here. There’s a problem I see with defining what is an expectation. You expect to do the right thing. But sometimes you don’t?

I see this mentioned many times here and can accept it. But does this mean you live without any goals or visions, only in the present all of the time?

I hope you had a brilliant Passover!

Great story! We’ve a lot in common. I got married and was in my last year of grad school. The marriage failed, and I decided I was not cut out for an academic science career. I was too sensitive for the cutthroat competition, and dropped out. I wound up in and out of mental hospitals for nine years, but got lucky and never returned or took an meds after that. Now I am thriving, living in central Mexico and writing about my experiences.

Kairos over Chronos

How does one measure which prison is worst?