I am ready to be silent and listen.

Like Christina, I would have to say a dogged perseverance along with prayer and resting in God to restore the grace of beginning once again.

I really resonate with what Kevin and devy wrote.

Oh my! So many and some quite funny!!
For now, though, I will say coming in from outside to food cooking. When my partner was alive he did ALL the cooking, as that was his love language. He died November 2018 and now I cook, sometimes. But there are times I awaken in the night and I can smell food cooking.

It changes daily. Today my heart is singing because I feel optimistic!

My motivation for why I do anything.

I don’t think anything I might do myself will make any difference for our planet today. I do, however, think what WE do as community can make a big difference. It will encourage US to stay the course, set better intentions, begin again when one of us fails. Cheers for WEs, or USs!!

During the fallowness and cold of winter where I am (Duluth, MN), I am in hibernation and quietness of mind, body and soul as I contemplate my future. So many changes since my partner committed suicide November 2018 have occurred. Now is a natural time to rest and settle and see what direction life would have me go.
So I suppose the answer to the question is “spring/resurrection will energize me”

Because it is winter, a fallow time of the year in northern Minnesota, my mind, body and spirit is following nature and gone into hibernation of sorts. I am taking this time to allow that without trying to force answers or make big decisions. I trust my higher self is guiding this.

I have been aware of the Presence since I was a young child. It has guided me throughout my life always search and finding in part that which we name God. As I continue my journey in this embodied life I find myself drawn more and more to the stillness and silence of the Friends.

I can embody grateful living today by being fully present in my body as I navigate this day of living, whether I am eating, moving, being still. I can also mind my thoughts and recognize there are those who are dealing with dementia who cannot, but today I can.

I am avoiding nothing. There is always plenty of things to keep me busy, but being busy doesn’t mean I am avoiding anything. Sometimes being busy is just being busy. There is a Grook by Piet Hein that reads “Problems worthy of attach prove their worth by hitting back.” Even if I wanted to avoid something, it will follow me, so I might as well just face it and get it over with.

That is precisely what monks and monastics do, Antoinette! Keep up the good work!

I am doing that, too!

Yeah, I have to be mindful of that very thing daily.

Thank you, Cathy. I am trusting it will.

Yeah, that is how it is for me, too, Kevin.

I agree, Antoinette. You might be interested in Wendy Mitchell’s blog “Which Me Am I Today”. She was diagnosed in 2014 with early onset Alzheimer’s at 53. It is remarkable and gives the rest of us insight as to how it is to live with dementia.

I am sorry for your loss. There really is no way around it. Peace be yours.

enjoy the anesthesia. i personally like nitrous oxide!