The most important thing right now, is that I’m still breathing and I’m taking another step. Moving forward. Willing myself to keep going. Pushing past apathy and doubt. Oh yeah, and the sun is shining the cats are playing, the coffee is doing it’s magic, and I get to ride bikes with two amazing friends. The most important thing is being present in this moment.
I, unintentionally, woke up earlier than I needed to this morning and I had time for my meditation practice before work. There was some silence. There was also bird sounds, cat sounds, a bit if wind in the trees, the sound of my girlfriend waking up. All of this was noted as I returned to my breath. Again and again.
I have a long work day today, but I am grateful for the work. I get to live and work in one of the most beautiful places on earth, and I’ll try not to forget this. I will practice gratitude and being present. I will also be available for honest connection.
There are a few people that I need to thank more regularly, some are in my life currently and some are not. But I’m sad to say, the emotions that this question raised are self pity, and a dash of bitterness. The feeling of being unsupported and alone in this life is strong and seems to be my tendency. Gratitude is something I’m practicing to counteract and balance these emotions.
I have been lucky. My life has been mostly pretty easy lately. My practices will hopefully sustain me when life inevitably gets rough. I like to think I’m developing helpful habits. I can also reflect on people that have kept their gratitude intact while enduring unthinkable suffering, as examples of strength and graciousness.
Having recently moved here, I am experiencing much of my immediate surroundings for the first time. As I sat down this morning, I noticed that my neighbor across the street has beautiful white flowering plants that are poking over the top of her fence. I will definitely take a closer look today.
My friend/business partner/former employee/all round solid as a rock person in my life, Marty Wendt. I do tell him how important he is to me and what a great friend and partner he is, but I could do it more often. And I think maybe more celebrating our longevity and connection.
I have grown in many ways, but it feels like it’s very much a work in progress. Maybe the most important way is, I have more appreciation for connectedness and I’m willing to be the one that nurtures that connection.
When I think about it, the movies that affected me had more to do with what I was going through at the time.
-Little big man
-The great beauty
I’m sure there are more, but these come to mind. I love movies and they have been a big part of my life, but mostly, they are a great distraction. A way to get out of my own head for a while.
By loving with my whole heart and embracing impermanence at the same time. Fear of change is a big one for me. Being grateful for the love I’ve had in my life, is part of my practice.
This is very relevant for me. I need to tend to my own fears and anxieties and worry less about tending to other peoples fears and anxieties. The things that I’m doing for myself, with varying degrees of success are: meditation, medication, therapy, yoga/stretching, and turning off the TV news. The things I should be doing more of are: listening/playing music, exercising, positive affirmations, and practicing gratitude. It’s an evolving project.
The truth that, being in the present and seeing things as they are, is the best place for me. It’s not easy to see without projection or judgment, or the “I wish…” syndrome. In fact, it’s impossible for me, but I attempt this every day.
What’s is revealed is that there is beauty and kindness all around me.
I am inspired by anyone that has found kindness and forgiveness after struggle and hardships. People who have chosen to softened their heart instead of hardening their heart. I am also inspired by hard working people, that can still be kind, even in the face of indifference. The people I see at 5am, driving to work or out in the Vinyard. The “essential” workers that somehow didn’t get bitter or give up completely during a pandemic that added another layer to an already difficult life.
I don’t normally wake up grateful. In fact my habit is to wake up overwhelmed. By practicing gratitude, I’m attempting to bring some much needed balance to my life. It’s helping me be more present and hopefully see the world as it is and not through a distorted lens.
All I can do is be grateful for the natural world around me and be aware of the connectedness. Of course I try to live as lightly as I can in this ecosystem, but I will never be able to really give back what I have consumed from nature. Respecting, studying, appreciating, loving, experiencing, protecting, and consuming wisely. These are thing I have done my whole life and will continue refine as I go along.
It’s interesting when the question Syncs with my current thoughts. And again, so much wisdom here in your responses. Living with an open heart means that I am exposed to all of it. Pain, suffering, beauty, kindness, all if it. Like so much of this, exposing your heart can require bravery and a certain confidence. Confidence that you can cope with all of it. It’s not easy. Carol, your observations give me so much to think about. Thank you 🙏
Iamme, you’ve got this. I have been self employed for the past 30+years with two businesses. Getting started is like stepping off a cliff. Putting yourself out there. Exposed. This is why you get rewarded. Believe me, it’s worth it. Make list’s and try to do something towards that goal every day. Little by little, you will grow this thing.
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Thank you Mary Pat, your words have turned on my gratitude switch. Lately, I have been writing down my response to the question, before reading others. Just reading your response and the others is such a gift. THANK YOU 🙏
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Thank you Michele. I will check him out this morning. 🙏
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