Dear friends,
in this common day of prayer I think of Gratefule Sea, Michele and Mary, who I miss, and I hope they are well.
Grateful Sea, did you see the bird in the photo of the day? It reminds me of an image you published for my birthday and moved me to tears …

I’ve had a health problem lately … dear friends, October is my month.
I felt trembling symptoms in my shoulders and legs, my breathing was short, my head and eyes hurt … That’s the thing: hypertension. So, unexpectedly, I had never suffered from this problem.
Now I’m taking a drug, not beta-blockers, so the value is still not low, but it’s definitely better. My doctor does not want to overdo it because he believes that this is due to my onset of menopause and prefers to wait to see if it stabilizes. Sometimes I feel very anxious, especially when I’m at work and I have to go driving from one place to another, in the middle of chaotic traffic. In this circumstance I did not choose to take homeopathic medicines, I was too much scared.
Now, I try to think that I have to be patient, look for a new balance and, if necessary, start with beta-blockers, without being ashamed. Yes, dear friends, I felt this strange shame, as if this lack of health had been my fault, as if I had not been a good woman, on the contrary, I always ran, always something to do … I also think that my ego has led me to have too much faith in my ability to find a good way to eat, cook, stay positive and I have also often thought that many of my friends suffer because they love to remain in their suffering, they love self-pity. But I’m not better than others and I don’t have to judge, because we are all fragile. Forgive me, my friends, I find that I have been overwhelmed by my ego and I think on one hand that I was superb, on the other that I wasn’t good enough … I ask you for a little help …

Dear Alicia, today I feel better, my doctor has changed the prescription by adding another medicine and two drops of a sedative before going to bed. He was so kind to me, he told me I have to go to him every time I feel sick, without thinking of boring him. He also told me not to think that a sedative is exaggerated, because it is a temporary remedy, I need rest and two or three drops are not a large quantity. He says that at this moment my body does not follow my will and some stimuli generate anxiety for me. So, after taking this new medicine too, I feel good. Thank you for your prayers, thanks to everyone here, because I am sure they are supporting me, I feel it.
Have a good Sunday, Alicia.

Dear Grateful Sea, I am moved to tears, for this kind and special gesture, to enter the church of Stokholm, for me.
It is a gift, I feel it in my heart and even a sense of presence, there is something that connects us.
I try to imagine a common breakfast, as dear Alicia said right below, a dream!
I am so happy for your trip, I believe that Sweden is a wonderful country and I wish you to enjoy nature, relationships and relaxation. I imagine Sweden, Norway, Iceland, Ireland as countries where relaxation is easier than anywhere else.
If I can, a big hug.

Dear Javier, it is not easy to accept a disease, and it is difficult not to fight it, but you are right, acceptance, surrender are a key. Don’t forget medical care, at least, that’s what I believe. The medical and pharmacological sciences still have much to discover, and perhaps especially where it seems impossible to find a rational reason, as in alternative treatments.
But I also believe that something good has come to us through the centuries of our Western Hippocratic tradition. I wish you the best for your journey, you are not alone. There are many people walking on this path both in the Lounge and in the Daily Question of this site. I received great support in my physical and spiritual challenges. This site is a grace. And I firmly believe that this communion is one of the keys to my healing journey.