dear everyone, your love, prayers, and candles help me enormously. Miracles are occurring. I feel much lighter, wise women are there to speak with me and give me good advice, do spiritual work for me and support me.
My husband has made me a present for Easter: a book with a most beautifully designed cover by an author called Monika Herz (her last name means heart) with the title: Be still, my heart, the trees are praying” … Healing and protecting prayers.
This is the first time I have got a present from my husband which I really cherish and which I could take from my heart. I didn’t even know the book existed and I couldn’t have chosen a better present for myself!
I found a prayer in the book which I feel is fitting to my situation …
Then I asked my husband to put his Hands on my lungs, back and column and to speak that prayer for me. He did, for quite a long time, and it was so good …
I wanted him to put his hands on my back for a long time, and this was the first time I could ask. Also, we had some precious time for us without duties, and the children didn’t disturb us at all.
Then afterwards, I had an encounter with a wise and spiritual woman who told me I wasn’t ill but transforming … which I had thought before. She encouraged me and told me strenghtening practices. She already had done healing work for me recently, and she is a woman of my mum’s age and a friend of a friend of my support group. I have always wished for the friendship of wom(e)n and also maternal wom(e)n. Now my transformation process is making it possible …
I had some challenging situations with my elder son, but all could be resolved with patience and humour …
It is like many miracles occurring simultaneously!
I am so grateful to all who are supporting me here and elsewhere! You are wonderful! Thank you!
PS @ Mary: Thank you for your supportive post. I haven’t acquired anything by Belleruth Naparstek yet but am currently looking her up again! I have found an audio sample. Thanks!
PPS @Diane Psalm 23 is also in the book my husband gave to me as a present! 🙂
Today and last night I was and am full of questions: Shall I go on fighting, as some suggest, although my life has been full of struggles? Shall I stop the struggles – but does that mean to give up and then the cancer can defeat me? I have somewhat lost the ground under my feet and it is the first time in all the years of my illness that I do not know how I can go on, or if it’ s too late? It’s a long time ago that I felt as helpless as now …
Dear ones, everybody who is praying for me and supporting me with good energy, especially Diane, Pilgrim, Anna, Juan who have answered to my post already, let me tell you that God has heard your prayers and given my soul some relief.
My doctor and psyco-oncologist had an appointment for me this afternoon, he lives not far away, and being very sober about my illness and how it has progressed, he could at the same time reach me at a very wounded point of my inner self, which made me cry (finally!) and smile afterwards. I think it has been an important step.
I also called two women of my group, who contacted me back later and let me know their support. I had no time to phone them back but I know that they are there if I need to talk. One of them who has become a friend suggested to talk tomorrow.
In the evening, my family, mum and me took part in a Maundy Thursday Mass in our Parish, and what we sang spoke to me … it seemed my story, actually it seems a ‘Holy Week’ for me this year. I was moved to tears sometimes, and it was the first time I made a public prayer for myself and I asked God to give me strength and health (actually there are special habits in this community concerning public prayer which are uncommon in my country).
Afterwards we shared meal together, and I also heard some touching words by people who wished me peace and health.
So I did feel that when the dark is deepest, I am not alone. I wish that my physical pain will also fade so that I can trust that my body can still be healthy in a way, too!
Diane, thank you so much for the beautiful Gospel Words!
Juan, thank you for your uplifting words!
Pilgrim, heartfelt thanks for your lovingkindness, suggestions and prayers.
Anna, many thanks for your numerous prayers and your spirit of support, lighting candles …
You all do incredible things for me, more than you know, and you believe in my HEALING which is enormous, as I had almost given up. I am not as optimistic as before, but maybe my hope to heal completely can come back!
So grateful for all your support! With love! Ursula
Dear Mary, I absolutely agree with you, and if you read my post above you will find that I am on the path you are suggesting …
Thank you so much!! Ursula
Dear Ben, so good to read from you again! I am glad that you emerged back after a long silence and I understand you were in shock … but it is good that you are back in life, with all of us! And that you cherish the Beauty in life again! Welcome back and Happy Easter! – Ursula
Hi Cintia, Feliz Páscoa! Happy Easter, and I am glad to read from you again! I understand your difficult situation the other day, I know very well to feel guilty because you think you have failed in a specific and difficult situation.
But I am learning to heal and I have learnt that the only thing guilt does is harm ourselves!
Just today I met with a wise woman who told me to say, each time a difficult situation with another person or with myself (also pain, be it physical or spiritual) is surging:
“I am sorry. I forgive you. I love you. Thank you that you have shown me that.”
Remain centered an breathe, always remembering that your breath goes in the vertical way, between heaven and earth! She told me this is essential, because this way you only breathe divine energy. Look at the difficult issues, don’t push them back but look at them and then let go!
I feel you are a very brave and wise woman, Cintia, and I am sure you are on your good path! Blessings, Ursula
Thank you, Ana!
I love your icon, the colours are just beautiful and it is so harmonious! ☀
Thank you so much for your prayer, Anna 🙏! I am going to the Church in the evening at 19.30, to what is called Resurrection Service. We always have a washing with water, as a renewal of our baptism. My wish and prayer is that God will wash my sins and hopelessness and despair and all illnesses away and fill me with his Holy Light instead.
It is also an anniversary tonight as my younger son was baptized aged 7,5 at this same Church, in this same Easters Night.
May light fill all souls and relief being brought to all oppressed and desperate beings! 🙏 ✨
Mille grazie, Anna!
Namaste🙏 ! Ursula
I am deeply grateful for your support and comfort! Thank you so much for your loving kindness! Ursula 💞
I deeply bow before your wise words, dear Pilgrim! Thank you so much! Happy Easter! 🌸🌼💞
Dear Pilgrim, thank you for your loving kindness, suggestions and your heartfelt prayers and words!
As a friend of mine (of our support Group) says, I have to go step by step. The first one is, I think, get back my psychical stability which has suffered a backstrike in the last days. I am also very tired and have to catch up on some sleep. I think the coming Easter Holiday is perfect for that as we don’t have big projects and the weather forecast is quite rainy and cold (I hope for some sunshine, though, to make a walk from time to time).
I know which therapy I ‘ m focusing on and will start a new combination in the next week(s), depending on availability of a specific product which I took for a long time and I think is good for me, but this time combined with mistletoe. I hope I will endure the regular injections!
The rest is seeking what is good for my heart and Soul and will help me continue my path of healing. Some kind of retreat or pilgrimage will come at the right moment, I ‘m sure! Even Italy is not yet completely out of reach, we’ll see …
thank you so much for your encouragement and the wonderful Psalm verses! Your words are like a balm for my Soul.
I read that you are yourself struggling at the moment. So sorry for you, Diane! I don’ t know exactly why you feel like being abandoned at the moment, but please know that you are held, as we all are, by a Divine Light and by the universal love and the love of those around you! You are such a beautiful member of this community, Diane, and I cherish your support you are giving to me despite your own “dark night” feelings!
May the light shine on you and Easter bring Resurrection for both of us, dear friend! Namaste! Ursula
Cara Anna, I hope you had a beautiful mass yesterday! Thank you for your prayers abd candle, again! I feel you close to me, like some other people here!
You are doing so much for me Anna, credimi! Your healing words are wonderful! Un grande abbraccio! 💞
Thank you, Maritz!
Now I understand why orange has always been one of my favourite colours since I was a child …
I think.the same thing happened to my mum and me and maybe one of my sisters who is only less than 2 years younger than me. And my mum was quite young when I was born first of three.
I tried to talk with her on two occasions some years ago, one of which was in a therapeutic setting called ‘generations’ dialogue, but we didn’t have enoigh time for all the issues that we had to talk about. Also, my mum who is 71 has carefully closed all her pains of a lifetime – I don’t know where. That’s why I have the feeling it’s difficult to get through to her. I don’t really know who SHE is, what SHE loves, etc. She has ‘sacrificed’ her life for other people and duties I think. That’s why I say that she is traumatized, and my whoke family actually is. I have maybe been the first who wanted to get out of all that since I was very young, and I actually have made many steps and felt like sort of a pioneer in many senses.
Only now I see that I can’t escape the suffering despite all my efforts. But it might be necessary for further growth. It just pray to God to give me strength at a moment when I feel weak – like now.
I am so grateful that in this special time of my life I find many loving souls who support me, be it ‘live’ or via this gr(e)ate(ful) and wonderful forum!
Dear Maritz, thank you for your love and healing! 💗 U.
Thank you so much for your appreciation and encouragement, Juan! ❤
Thank you for your love and prayers, Ana 🙏! Ursula
So happy with you that God is restoring your health and that you can see the world’s beauty again!!! Blessings to you! Ursula ✨
first of all I want to say that I admire your courage and strength to overcome this horrible crime and share it on this forum! I am deeply relieved with you that you have come to this point in your life and that you are free now !!!! Congratulations!!!
I am aware that this is an issue in our family, too, and what I had always suspected has been confirmed lately by a technique which a therapeute used in a session after my latest surgery. It seems I was a very young child when it occurred and I always kind of “knew” it but got no confirmation. My mum who has to know and whom I tried to talk about it is so traumatized that she just didn’t answer and she doesn’t know how to deal with it, I am sure. It’s about her step father, her father died of an illness which is in a similar category as mine when she and her sister were very young children …
Thanks for making it possible for me to talk about it, Maritz!!!!! I am so grateful to you!!!!! 💓 I know the horror to carry it with you all your life, and I am deeply moved by the smile you show on your icon! So happy you are free now! I wish you to celebrate and show your joy to the whole world!
Also happy for your post saying that you were excited about your family reuniting after many years of separation! I read it a few days ago. Maritz, you give me back the hope which I had lost in the last weeks, that HEALING IS POSSIBLE! ✨
Thank you for suggesting me your visualization. I have made many visualizations lately, but in the last week I was hardly able to do it because I had quite a lack of energy. I will use this one that you tell me, it sounds good! Do the colours have a special meaning in this context?
Many blessings and thanks to you again, so happy you are sharing here! Good Good Friday! 💗 Ursula
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