After having tried to post my entry two times the day before yesterday and it disappeared because I pressed the wrong key, I try again today. The last days my Combative Spirit was asking for remembrance and it was awakened by the fact that on friday afternoon, the “boss” of my (social) institution told me that I would give no more German courses next week. Ít was a complete surprise for me and I think they want to save money, but I was shocked because no one had told me that I had a limited contract (note, he wanted me to sign one a f t e r having told me it was finished!!). Furthermore, one week ago his colleague (the “pedagogic” boss) had told me it would’nt be possible for me to go on a holiday (when starting to work, I had asked if it was a problem that I had already planned two Holiday weekd – the answer was “no Problem”). I love my work and the refugee kids and youngsters were what kept me alive during the last hard weeks after my health news … So now I have to fight for my rights once again (not the first time in my life, btw) and sometimes I ask myself what I do have to change for not always falling into the same traps … I have to get out of this “bad karma thing” in many aspects, and I need help because I can’t get out of it by myself I think … so once more I need spiritual support and my inner strength to be able to believe it CAN change … and that I have got a right to it!
Let’s put it the other way round! What is on my ‘to do list’? To cite the word of the day, it is having a strong mind and planting in it a firm resolve, so I can change my destiny.
Today I had a moment of sadness after my biopsy as I thought of the operation I might have soon. Now the Word of the Day is well timed to remind me that having a strong mind is so important for me!
What makes me come alive, is giving German lessons to refugee kids and young adults.
Today, I could not do my job ’cause I went to hospital for consultation concerning my health. The good news was that what had been found recently is all operable, which means excellent news – the best possible at the moment!
Before, in two days time I will have a biopsy and one week after, another consultation to know the results and make an appointment for the operation.
I would largely prefer continuing to work instead of going to hospital one more time, but I pray and hope that it will all turn out well and I can continue giving my German lessons afterwards.
Thanks to you all who are praying for me – I do it for you, too! – and it helps me already to feel alive! – Blessings Ursula
Dear LJ, so happy to read that the doctors found out where your lung problem came from … and that the medicine was able to help so quickly!! I wish you a prompt recovery and full health soon! I thought so much of you these last times! And by the way, I admire your courage and energy despite all the adversity! – In Metta,
Dear Mary Pat, I wish you a prompt recovery and I am praying for you and the lady of the post office. I know what it is like when pain makes impossible to really participate in social life or anything else. So I hope you will be fully healthy soon.
Dear Debbie, wish you good luck! I pray for you to find the dog which is ‘fitting’ you and your apartment size! – Blessings, Ursula
Dear LJ, may the Universe be supporting in all you are asking. – U.
Thanks, Gina, for your appreciating words! I feel that not only I give much to my students, but I get back so much in return … humanity for instance, and also sometimes their laughter and smiling, and even their sadness so I let them know I am feeling with them. The situation is very hard at the moment especially for the Syrian refugees, and many of them do/did not take part in the lessons these last days because of so many sorrows. So let’ s pray also for them and their families which they left behind – they really need it. – Ursula
Thank you, Debbie, I so appreciate your empathic thoughts and words, and even more because I know of your own concerns. Your prayers are so welcome, and I assure you that I am praying for you! – Blessings, Ursula
Thank you so much, Kevin. I appreciate and need your prayers, they help me through the challenging times! – In metta (as LJ taught us 😊), Ursula
Thank you so much for your words and prayers, cara Anna! – Mille grazie!
Dear Kevin, reading your post concerning your chronic back pain I just remembered having been recommended a book some time ago. ‘Healing back pain’ by John Sarno. Have you heard of it? I wonder if you can find some help there. Wishing you lighter days ahead, Ursula
It’s so clear that we are all in the same boat … so my prayers are for the leaders, political, religious or others, that they finally understand what it is necessary to do NOW, for their own and humanity’s sake
Thank you so much LJ for expressing exactly what I am thinking. It is a great joy to know that people like you and me who try to live more from their heart than for the ‘image’ do exist in all parts of the world. – Gratefully, Ursula
Thank you so much, Mary Pat! I so appreciate your praying for me at each meal!! I am so very grateful for the beauty of your image – it shall give me so much energy for the job I am doing right now with refugee adult kids who are so lovely but also very traumatized and this I can feel. It shall also give me the energy for necessary treatments and wonders ahead … so I dare hope! Blessings to you, Mary Pat!
May I ask you to include the kids also in your prayers? I really would appreciate that. Thank you!
Dear Debbie, hearing from your own and sometimes difficult situation, I appreciate infinitely your caring and prayers for me and my family!! I am really impressed that you are wiling to do that for us, and thank you infitnitely for the prayer chain inspiration – it is so welcome!!! The best for you, and I will include you in my prayers, just like all others posting here regularly or every once in a while who often impress me by their honesty and wise words, even in the most difficult situations.- Ursula
Thank you so much, dear LJ, and I know that you know what I am talking about. I appreciate your prayers so much and thank you infinitely for your comforting and encouraging words.
You are right, my job gives me new hope, especially because it’s about teaching german language to refugees living “around the corner”, and even though it was somewhat exhausting – I had had almost no sleep the night before – these young and some of them radiant people coming from so hard situations inspired me with their positive energy and impressed me with their courage and willingness to learn our language and adopt (our adapt to) a new culture .- In metta, Ursula
Mille grazie, cara Anna, per le tue preghiere e per il tuo incoraggiamento. – Orsola 🙂
Thank you Saoirse – I love your Irish name btw 🙂 – for your encouragement and comfort, and especially for your love and care. – Ursula
Thank you so much, Pilgrim. Your answer is so comforting to me. Especially your last wish is a strengthening and it seems to me that you have completely understood what our latest suffering is about. Blessings to you, Pilgrim!
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