These days someone visited, for whom I care professionally since nearly 30 years. When he left this morning, he was able to share his utter despair about his desperate condition of health, which he said was strongly present when he arrived here three days ago and which was much better, as was his overall condition when he left this morning.
It was deeply touching to hear him open up about this very delicate topic. He had given his trust and hope and confidence. I just followed the given signs and gave my support and care and knowledge. And a third – grace – has been there for him as well. Something which one cannot make. Finally it seems there is some light now at the end of the tunnel for him, which makes me feel deeply grateful towards life, and for both being part of and as well being allowed to witness this process, grateful for his entrusting himself to my care still after all these years and for the heartfelt connection with him. It leaves me in awe of the wonder, reflected as well in the word for the day today.
Beginning to open up to love offers the chance to allow blooming again. I don´t know how a situation will be transformed, but somehow this will change perspective to unfolding what has been blocked inside in a way, towards the other and towards life itself which now has a chance to unfold. Still astonished that this happened, and deeply grateful for the gift, overcoming the feeling of not deserving it, to take care of and love to learning to let it unfold to its full beauty towards my loved ones and all around.
I have asked for learning to love and being loved and it has been given. May this seed of love unfold limitless.
That there is no real separateness. That we are each one an expression, a unique sparkling form of realization of the source; sparkling life, and it means that we are meant to express this sparkling which we all share in our unique way. And so do animals and plants. To be in this world, to bring in our individual gifts, talents, strengths and weaknesses, so that the beautiful rainbow appears in all its colors. It means pure joy and universal variety in the light of love.
I can forgive my mother, my father and myself for not having been able to give each other what we would have needed when I was a child, which was love and affection. It was reactive to experienced hardship in all of us. This has changed, but there was still old grudge in me, of which I was not aware.
A recent, deeply challenging life experience in my case is an opportunity to repair or, with Gods help, heal wounds in several places. If I follow Deb`s beautiful approach in asking “what would love do”, it means to open a door again which I had closed may be already very early in lifetime.
Dear Deb, please take this as a sign of hope for your reunion with your beloved daughter, that – as a kind of deputy – I will do my best to open this door towards my friend again. We are all interconnected, may be my opening will help her, too? I would so much wish it for you both as well. Being a daughter and may be for a part having done what your daughter seems to have done and just becoming aware of what I did, feel embraced and deeply thanked for keeping your love towards your daughter, dear Deb.
Quite a lot, I have to say. That being true to myself is one way to grow, as far as growing is used as a concept in this world. To internally let go of the professional role I am partially still using as a protection. To see that yielding to manipulation to something which was never true was one of my weaknesses out of fear, and that this is the line I will not cross any more. To be soft and allowing vulnerability as a guideline. That one of my strengths is to wholeheartedly include others even when I feel or am truly excluded by them from what my heart yearns for and not avoiding to feel the excruciating pain this causes, nor accusing or giving back in revenge. That wholeheartedly including all what is, all other into my heart is the way. That there are thousand ways to kneel and kiss the ground. With deep gratefulness to be here and having the opportunity of sharing with you all here.
Everywhere, and just when I was having lunch together with a dear friend, it was the shared friendship, the talking about essential themes like dealing with vulnerability and how to “unarmour” ourselves that made lunch and our meeting being an experience full of beauty.
Just today I could see the enlightening talk of Brene Brown on vulnerability, which was suggested to look at by John a week ago. No more words needed… Just clearing what is the right thing to do in this respect. Thank you, dear John for reminding and placing the link, and in case there are still some left here who have not seen it… may I repeat placing the link. https://youtu.be/X4Qm9cGRub0. I find it is enormously helpful. Have a good day you all!
Laughing, singing, dancing, being in nature, being with loved ones and friends, looking joyfully at this clear blue sunny sky even if unexpectedly it is almost zero degrees Celsius outside, while inside , there are warm thoughts and wishes for my fellow people, friends, family and loved ones.
All experiences of all the various qualities add to the beauty and gift of being able to lead my life and they truly enrich it. Dark times have led me to appreciate life in its immeasurable variety of possibilities and allowed me to experience joy, happiness and deep gratefulness. I was allowed to develop humility, something of which I was aware that it was painfully missing. For this I am deeply grateful. All this is lived and experienced through me and it cannot be lost, it is written in the book of life forever even when I will be gone and I hope it might be of service for others just through living a peaceful life with alertness and loving care for all around.
It is not really possible for me to discriminate between small or large beauty. I am surrounded by beauty everywhere. The sun shines and alternates with episodes of rain, both beautyful, depending on the viewpoint, but both essentially beautiful and essentially needed, like all around. The leaves, the water, all which exists is just beautiful, when I look at all which exists with loving eyes.
Day by day, Easter lambs are born here where I am currently visiting a friend for her birthday, which was yesterday. 2 days ago, suddenly a 3 weeks old lamb got seizures. It was hit at its head by something so there must have been a major bleeding. With 3 adults and 4 kids we all together managed to help, so that at the end of this day, this little lamb was again able to drink and be with her mother, although still not able to stand on its own feet. But it could lift his head again and not overstretching his limbs and head any more. We were all so very happy about this. It was just a meaningful day for all of us.
Coming from really sad times for a very long time, my life has become much better with aging. With deep gratitude there now is much more joy, much more understanding of things and people, much more love to give and a direction of life sailing with all sails set into a life I love to live and to share with the beloved ones who live near and far, with friends, and with all difficulties included. A great gift, this life!
I will go outside and imagine to handle over a rose from my heart to each one I encounter as a symbol of love for their being, hoping and wishing the energy may help to ease their path.
So thanks for your support, dear Palm!
If you don´t mind, I´ll join you in this. Thanks, dear Palm.
Wishing you all the best for the operation, dear Kevin. Keep faith and trust, and we all here are with you the coming weeks to support you with our prayers for you to become free of pain again, that you may fully recover to well being. Feel warmly accompanied in this difficult decision for the better.
Thanks such a lot for this!
So lovely that you are here again writing and sharing! You, like several others who have shared regularly have been missed. So good you are back!
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